Archive | July, 2015


30 Jul

We planned a fun photoshoot with a pet photographer tonight with us and our dog. Our dog is going to help us announce the pregnancy … since he is our beloved dog child. Of course, as luck would have it, I have sprouted an unattractive lip zit. What the heck? I’m breaking out like crazy and it makes me feel like I’m in middle school … except with much larger breasts.

Tonight’s Food Aversion …

28 Jul

Seafood dip! And seafood stuffed mushrooms.

My lovely husband tried to make me a delightful dinner tonight. He grilled steaks, made a seafood dip, and stuffed mushrooms. He even made me guacamole since I’ve been obsessed with it lately. I tried one mushroom, something I normally love, and I could barely choke it down. The seafood smell was so incredibly strong that it smelled like 1000 dead fish on a beach.

Guess I’ll be avoiding fishy smelling foods for a bit.

The worst part is I put a strudel in the oven right after the dip and mushrooms were in there and now I SWEAR IT TASTES LIKE SEAFOOD. My husband thinks I’m nuts, but I swear it has hints of seafood.

They aren’t lying when they say your sniffer goes into hyper drive when you’re pregnant. It’s completely unreasonable, yet I cannot make myself eat something once I have thoughts like this. It’s so gross.

I love that food! I mean, I hate that food!

28 Jul

Food aversions are here and it’s really strange. I will think about a food I normally enjoy, know that I really liked it, but the thought of seeing it or smelling it cooking is absolutely repulsing. For instance, we made a Thai beef with carrots and green beans dish a couple weeks ago. It was really good, except now when I think about it, I want to barf. I know that I liked it so much, but I cannot even comprehend eating it right now.

I’ve also noticed if I don’t eat immediately upon waking up in the morning, I get sick. And I mean, IMMEDIATELY …. before I even get out of bed. And if I wait too long to eat a meal, I’m sick. I guess the moral of the story is that I need to make sure I eat constantly or else I end up sick.

On the flip side, cravings are also starting. I’ll think of some random food and it will sound like THE MOST AMAZING FOOD IN THE WORLD and I will need it in my mouth ASAP. Like guacamole. Guacamole sounds AMAZING! And chicken tacos! AMAZING! This past weekend, I wanted nothing more than cherry strudel with a scoop of vanilla gelato from an orchard/pie pantry near my parents’ house. I went down to visit my parents and convinced my mom to go get strudel with me (though she opted for a caramel apple dumpling) in the middle of the afternoon. Strudel! AMAZING!

These cravings are all fine and dandy when it’s something I have access to. My other insatiable craving is for pimento cheese. There was an AMAZING cheese place in DC called Cheesetique. They made the most delicious pimento cheese and pimento grilled cheese sandwiches (part of their “grown-up grilled cheeses”). I would love one right now, but that’s not going to happen. And unfortunately, none of the cheese dealers in Michigan have produced a pimento cheese on this level. I miss it so much. I would eat a whole tub of it right now, even with my ban on cheese/dairy (which has been lifted ever so slightly since I found out I’m pregnant).


24 Jul

We had our first ultrasound this morning. I was shocked, but we were able to see the flick of the baby’s heartbeat, even this early! It was awesome! The doctor said everything is looking good. We go back in two weeks for another ultrasound and then I get released to by OB GYN after that.

Oh, and right now it looks like there’s only one baby taking up residence, but the doctor did say there was another smaller area that they want to look at again when I go in two weeks, so who knows?

Double Dose

22 Jul

Today I had a double dose of me time with therapy followed by acupuncture. I conked out during acupuncture, probably because I woke up at 1:30 in the morning and couldn’t fall back asleep last night. I should be feeling relaxed right now, but I’m still tired and have a headache … and have so much stuff to do for work.

It was kind of fun telling my therapist that we are (finally) pregnant. I haven’t talked to her since I was in the middle of the dreaded two week wait. She wanted to give me a high five, which is funny because that’s what I’ve been doing with people I consider on my “team” to make this happen. It’s taken a lot of people to get us here. Doctors, so many doctors, a nutritionist, a therapist, an acupuncturist — our own little army of people trying to help us make a baby.

Our first ultrasound is on Friday. I am really hoping they can tell us something … like if there is more than one bambino taking up residence in my uterus. Maybe it’s too early? I don’t know.

My boss knows that I’m pregnant. I told him earlier this week. It was unplanned, but a good moment to talk to him since we were both on a video call and it was just the two of us. He took it well and was happy for us. And now he gets to come up with some kind of pregnancy company policy because I’m the first person in the company to get pregnant (we’re a start-up). Fun times.

I’m finding it increasingly harder and harder to keep being pregnant a secret. I’ve told random people, but my extended family and friends don’t know yet. We’re planning to do a photoshoot next week with a pet photographer and our dog to announce the news. I think once I have those prints, I’ll be ready to let the world know. I guess there really isn’t any particular time you’re supposed to tell people. It’s whatever feels right for you.

We’re going on vacation in a few weeks. I’m super bummed that one of my besties isn’t joining us now because she has to go on a work trip. I’ve been looking forward to this for months and months and I was so looking forward to seeing a good friend and hanging with her kids, whom I love to pieces.

Sometimes I wonder why we choose to stay in this part of the world (apart from my family being nearby) when it seems like neither of us has many local friends. I know I have trouble making lasting friendships (call me Captain Acquaintances) and that’s because of my own issues (long story involving the death of a good friend — a sad story for another time). I get really annoyed when I do make an effort and invite people to do things with me and then I get blown off every single time, so I just kind of quit trying. Then I get annoyed when it’s just me, hubby, the dog, and the cat, and wonder how a former social butterfly like me ended up this way. It is kind of depressing to realize you don’t have a single person in your zip code who you could call in a pinch. It’s hard to make good quality friends in your 30s! All of mine are so, so, so far away. I miss them terribly.

iMac Held Hostage by Geniuses for 5 Days

16 Jul

I’ve been kinda quiet lately. Mostly because my iMac’s hard drive decided it no longer wanted to live (the thing’s just over a year old!) and I had to take my giant iMac to the Apple Store for a Genius Bar appointment. I sat there for two hours while they tried to determine what was wrong (hard drive). Thankfully, they were able to get my files transferred over to my external drive, so all wasn’t lost, but they kept my computer for five days “fixing” it. I wasn’t motivated enough to post an entry from my phone.

So, yes, last Saturday the blood test confirmed that I am pregnant. It’s news that is still shocking to me. I had acupuncture scheduled on Monday, so I walked in and gave my acupuncturist a high five and told him I’m pregnant. That was pretty fun. He is excited for us and is going to spend the next nine months keeping me mellow.

My doctor had me go back to the lab again on Wednesday for another blood test. They wanted my human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG) number to be 554 or higher. It was 128 on Saturday. I ended up having the same lab tech I had a few weeks ago for a different test in a different lab at a different hospital. She remembered me because we had talked about the fertility center and she mentioned her sister was also going there. As I was leaving the lab a few weeks ago she said, “I bet I’ll see you again and you’ll be pregnant!” She was right! I told her I am and she kept saying how awesome that is and how much she hopes her sister’s IUI goes as well as ours did. How crazy is that?

The fertility center called me back later Wednesday morning to say my level was 928 and that it is a great number and I should schedule my first ultrasound.

Nobody’s said anything yet to us yet, but I’m wondering if there’s more than one baby up in here. I think it’s twins, but I suppose we’ll have to wait and see what the official word is. It just seems if the numbers are twice what they want them to be, that maybe there’s more than one in there. The fertility center scheduled my 6-week ultrasound for the end of next week. I was scratching my head as to how it could be 6 weeks when it’s only been 4 weeks since the IUI. I was educated that they calculate from the date of your last period. I had no idea that’s how they decide dates and whatnot. Medical math! So strange!

We’ve told our siblings, my parents, and my husband’s boss the news. We’re waiting to tell my husband’s mom until I’m a little further along. She’s in a nursing home and we don’t want to get her all excited in case something goes wrong. It’s really hard to keep it a secret. I’ve told a few close friends who already knew about our infertility struggles and that we were doing IUI. One of those friends has been a really great source of support over the last two years because she’s been going through the same thing we have. I felt bad telling her, but she told me to keep her posted, so I did. She kind of avoided me for a few days. I think I will be careful in being too excited with her until she gets her positive. It hurts my heart to leave her out, but I don’t want her to feel like I’m celebrating while she’s still fighting a tough battle.

My husband and I have been talking about how to announce that we’re pregnant. I have no idea when you should or when you’re supposed to … seems like a situation that’s different for every person. I really don’t think I can hold in the secret for the entire first trimester. I want to do a fun photoshoot with our dog or something. Maybe we’ll arrange something after the first ultrasound.

I have a feeling I will have to tell work at some point. I am so exhausted that I can’t make it through the day without taking a nap. I’ve been going to bed at 8 p.m. and I’m still exhausted!  I’ve also been having crazy dreams. Last night’s dream included my bowels leaking out of a hole in my lower abdomen that I kept trying to patch up with gauze. What the hell?

Holy Moly

11 Jul

It’s real! I got the lab results on my health portal. I’m pregnant for real!

I’m also shocked.

Is This Real?

11 Jul

Today’s the day I can test. I just took it and it still says, “Pregnant 1-2 Weeks!” Am I really pregnant?!

I’ll be headed to the lab for a blood test this morning. I’m afraid to believe it’s true, even though it’s gotta be true. It’s been showing positive everyday since I started testing on Wednesday.

Apparently, all of the following worked for me in some combination of luck and divine intervention:

  • Femara
  • Gonal-F
  • Ovidrel
  • IUI 
  • Acupuncture (both once a week and the day of IUI)
  • All organic diet 
  • Dairy free diet
  • Low carb diet
  • Eating more protein
  • Drinking only water or hot tea (no sodas/juices/adult beverages/coffee)
  • Yoga 3-5 times a week
  • 4-5-mile walks 4+ times a week
  • Mental health (talking to a therapist every two weeks)
  • Royal Jelly supplement
  • Probiotic supplement
  • Prenatal vitamins
  • Eating pineapple core (yuck) after the IUI 
  • Having laparoscopic surgery
  • Having a HSG
  • Having an OB Gyn who knew when to send us to the fertility center 
  • Being persistent and not giving up even when I wanted to throw in the towel

Quite a list, eh? I feel like we’ve tried it all over the last 2 1/2 years. I also feel like the last 2 1/2 years came close to breaking our spirits. I hope with all my heart this test is real, but I’ll have to be patient just a little longer to see what my blood says. Having a false positive HPT in the past makes you never believe those tests.

The Plan

9 Jul

I took another pregnancy test this morning and it said the same thing. I’m still cautiously optimistic. If it’s still reading positive Saturday morning, I’m booking it over to the closest lab that’s open to get a blood test. I’ve told myself not to believe anything until I have a blood test to confirm it. Oh, the suspense!

I do not know how I will make it through today and tomorrow. The hours just seem to drag on and on!

Oops, I Did It Again?

8 Jul

I must be losing my mind if I’m quoting Brittany Spears in blog posts. When I got up this morning, I took another digital pregnancy test. It said, “Pregnant 1-2 Weeks” on it like it did yesterday.  Again, i’m cautious about getting my hopes up because the nurse told me you can get a false positive or negative if you test before the date they tell you, in my case 7/11 is the day. I’ve read numerous accounts on the dear interwebs about this very thing, too. Some ladies seem to like to test everyday and others wait until the day they were told. Me? I’m feeling rebellious.  For whatever reason, testing everyday until 7/11 is making me feel better. I’m going to keep doing it. I don’t care that I’m blowing through expensive pregnancy tests.

I’m wondering how long the Ovidrel trigger shot stays in your system. I took mine on 6/25. I had the IUI on 6/27. That means it’s been 13 days since the shot and 11 days since the IUI. Does Ovidrel stick around that long? I guess I’ll find out for sure on Saturday.

In other news, I am doing an okay job at keeping myself busy. Work is busy. My parents babysat our needy dog for a couple days, so we’ve had complete freedom every night to go out to eat and go to movies. Those are two pretty normal things that we rarely do because we have a dog that we can’t leave alone (long story). We usually take him to daycare if we have something going on. We both miss the dog, though. He’s coming home today.


I found this on the internet:

Most doctors recommend that you wait 14 days after a 10,000 IU injection, 10 days after a 5,000 IU injection, or 7 days after a 2,500 IU injection.

I had 2,500 IU. If the above is true (which, okay, you never know about some things on the internet), that would mean it’s out of my system and these pregnancy results are real. Hmmm.

Stella Nash

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